For 3 years and a couple months. (he never properly asked me to be his girlfriend so I don’t fully know the exact moment when he decided that I was going to be his next victim)
He would open the door for me to enter and exit the restaurants we would go to. (and I would pay for both of our meals)
He would stop me before I would touch the handle to open the car door. (it was my car he was driving)
He would scream and argue with me. (but would pause to ask me for money to buy alcohol and his favorite rock – molly)
He put me in a choke hold. (and then started to call me a “man beater” for fighting back)
He slapped me. (and then pointed a loaded gun to his head)
He would attempt to have sex with me after an argument to “make up”. (he would force himself on to me and then would get mad when i would reject him)
He faked getting shot in the leg. (and when I arrived, he attempted to drive my car with the leg he got “shot” on; later to disclose that he only made that up to see how much I cared about him)
He cheated on me. (gaslighted me into believing that he hadn’t and that I was projecting on to him but it was the other way around)
He claimed he was there to protect me. (only to put a loaded gun on my lap while driving my car and park near a corner store where all of people that “wanted him dead” would be stationed at; in case he got into a shot out, I would shoot to protect him of course)
He called me a child multiple times after he “popped” me on the mouth. (he is in his 30s and I’m in my 20s)
He screamed at me at the top of his lungs while being outside my mother’s home that the neighbors called the police. (I had asked him to not smoke molly around my brother and of course I lied to cover for him not to go to jail that day: around 8 police cars came)
I don’t know at what point my mind wouldn’t allow me to leave but I know the reason as to why I did not want to prove him right – that I was just going to leave him like everyone else had. So I did my best to show him the love I thought he deserved, yet every day he showed me exactly why he did not deserve anything from me.
Blooming With Flo 